Unwatching + No More Watching Deviants (READ WHY)

This is something I have been pondering in a while and now that I came to a final decision, I think I owe you this announcement.

Starting today (Sunday, May 24, 2015) I will no longer Watch any Deviants here on DeviantART. All past Watched/Friended people will also be removed from the list(s).

Does that mean I don't want anything to do with you anymore? Absolutely NOT! It just means I don't want to see any more notifications from DeviantART about new stuff from people I watch.

As an alternative to DevWatch/Friend, I have a bookmarks tool/folder where I save your links and that I will regularly check for new deviations, journals, polls, etc. That way, I'll still keep up to date on your news and in touch with you via comments and Notes. Same applies to new artists and writers I want to follow on DA.

Why this?

It's because I'm vulnerable. After the recent bullying episodes that involved me personally, I'm weak. I'm drowned in depression, panic attacks and other nasty feelings, like a desire to disappear (NOT to die, just to become invisible) that I fight every minute, hour and day.

I'm vulnerable and I don't know for how long I will still be, so in a time like this, watching someone means:

• Feeling exposed
• Feeling social pressure
• Both of the above work as triggers for further anxiety/panic attacks

For now, comments on my own artworks and written pieces stay open, so everybody feel free to comment on my deviations. We'll see if this works in the future, but even now, please know that I will always prefer to communicate with you privately via Notes than publicly via comments. At least, when the conversation becomes a little more personal than just art critiques, technical comments, etc.

Of course, you can totally unwatch/unfriend me after you read this. I will understand and I will not hold a grudge against you (would be silly if I did). I hope we'll still keep in touch via Notes and comments and check on each other when both of us have a minute to spare, but I will understand if you want to cut ties completely. I may not be a perfect friend for everybody, which is normal and it's true for everybody. You can love every human being but still be incompatible as friends. Happens; don't feel bad about it.

And to end this entry with something nicer, here's a cam pic of my Sunstreaker (yep, Transformers!) figure waving 'Hi!' and a sneaky Luana (me) hiding behind him:


I love you.